I have been mostly walking/jogging again, and thankfully my stress fracture seems to be fully healed! I really enjoy my walks because 1)if Mike goes with me I get some time with him….uninterrupted 
. or 2)I get some time to myself and I have uninterrupted time to think and meditate on things…although i really need to bring a notebook . I listen to my music and sing, I try to be quiet cause I dont want to scare anyone. LOL I often look up as I walk at the sky. I have always loved the sky and clouds since i was little. When Mike and I were first married and we would travel home each year, I would watch the clouds for much of the 9 hour drive.
Anyway, as I was walking I was looking at the sky. Ya know, it is never the same. It is amazing how God who never changes, makes so much that is never the same and so much variety. One of the reasons I have loved the sky so much is it reminds me of Jesus. Those clouds that are so bright, pure and majestic white, to me, are a miniscule glimpse of what Jesus will look like since in Revelation it says ‘his head and hair were white (Rev 1:14) and in Rev 22:5 it says that there will be no need for the sun because God will give us the Light.
As I am watching these beautiful white clouds, a fast moving dark cloud invaded and blocked the white cloud. This massive white cloud was completely hidden from my view in a matter of seconds by the dark cloud. There was a mixture of dark hues in that cloud. The darkest section did not reveal any light through it. There was a lighter gray area in one of the sections of cloud that allowed a hazy shadowed view of light but it wasnt shining through. BUT I knew that above that cloud was that gloriously bright white cloud because I had just seen it standing there.
In that moment, God reminded me how there are dark clouds in our life. Some of them come quickly and invade our life without warning, seemingly from out of nowhere. Other dark clouds creep in and just as well there are some little dark clouds interspersed through our bright (good) days. Those clouds were dark, but the fact remained that there was a bright white cloud standing faithfully abouve that dark cloud.
God was reminding me that no matter how dark our days may be, how long they seem to last…the fact remains that Jesus reigns over all the dark times in our life. Sometimes we can see Him as if through a blur (of emotion, grief, heartache and pain)but other times it is harder to see Him. It is in those times we must lean more on our faith, that we know the One who faithfully reigns over us and all in our life, that He cannot be moved, He wont move. He has not forgotten us or forsaken us. (Hebrews 13:5)
As I walked on, I looked up again. And there, where it hadnt been before, the sun was shining full force in the midst of the dark and white clouds. Two things came to my mind as I tried to look up at that blinding light- 1) that God reigns in all of our days, good and bad. We tend to seek Him harder in the difficult times and struggle more, and then in the good times we, if were honest, dont turn to Him and seek as we should each day, even for the little daily things. and 2) I believe He put the thought in my head that those white clouds are pretty incredible, but those are just the tastes of heaven He gives us (the blessings, the good days, ..) and the full light of the sun, the blinding light for me represented what is to come (Jesus). He has not yet revealed Himself in full yet. All the beauty and joy that we recieve now from Him is just a taste.
Look around you today and look for Him- in the little things and the big. And if you are in a dark time, remember that there is the Big Cloud reigning above those dark ones. The dark ones are moving on, they are temporary. Some move faster than others but they are moving and the Light will come.
Be Blessed
Koen
