So the thing God has been showing me the last year is that I need to be completely satisfied in Him. Sounds elementary- kinda, but not only is He convicting me of that but showing me how I am not being completely satisfied in Him. So many things we KNOW are easier knowing than DOING. So often we thing we are doing or living a certain way, but it takes God showing us we aren’t quit where we thought we were. Humbled again!
So pondering on this whole thing about Adam being completely satisfied when it was he and God, and then God giving Adam the gift of Eve is what God used to bring me to this next ‘conclusion’. I have not been completely satisfied in God because I have so often looked to Mike to meet many of my needs. Naturally he cant meet all my needs, and often the needs he can meet he doesn’t or disappoints because he isn’t perfect. Only God can know all and perfectly meet all my needs. Many of those He does meet through Mike, but I shouldnt be looking to Mike to meet them. I shouldnt go to Mike for them, but first to my Father.
In the same way that Adam was satisfied in and with God, and accepted from God the gift of Eve and all she contributed; I need to look to God for all I need and be blessed when God meets those needs through Mike.
Expecting Mike to meet my needs in a certain way will only set me up for disappointment. Looking to God when I have a need, even if i think mike can meet it, looking to God first and trusting Him with it, I wont be disappointed because I will see Him work through Mike to express His love for me. Then I get double the blessing- God’s love and Mikes love both shown to me.
Ephesians 5 speaks of the role of the husband and wife, and their needs. When each of us is living and loving as Christ- sacrificially, unconditionally, humbly and putting each other first (Phil2:3) then our needs will be met in the most beautiful and satisfying way.
Sounds so simple, huh? lol Mike and I are both learning new and better ways to communicate and understand our needs. We have realized a weakness in this area.
Reah recently picked up a book at the book store, for children, adn the cover was so cute and pretty. She said ‘ohh look at this pretty book’. I told her it was a very pretty book but inside of it was things that werent good. (it focused on being pretty, fashionable, …)
That was a reminder to me, how we can think because things are good that they dont need improving. That is where Mike and I have found ourselves. we use to even talk about how great our marriage was, but we also unaware of how the busyness of life was causing a distance in us. Thankfully, by God’s grace He allowed us to realize this and work on improving and now we can recognize that, and work to prevent it from happening again.
So I guess to sum up the lesson God is teaching me is that I need to be COMPLETELY satisfied in Him, not look to Mike, but look at Mike as the blessing he is.
